Hello

I'm new here, nice to connect with you. Just been reading an article in mentalhealthdaily.com entitled 'I Want To Die' which lists some things you can do to at least distract yourself from suicidal thoughts. I hope you don't mind, but I need to stop trying to cover up how I feel and say it like it is.

Briefly, I have had depressive episodes for almost 50 years! When the depression releases its grip, in comes anxiety. I sway between the two and life becomes unbearable. Mental suffering has been my constant companion most of my life. Tried everything from therapy to anti-depressants, exercise, meditation, walking in nature, healthy eating, you name it, I've probably tried it. But it always comes back - making me immobile, can't get out of bed, suicidal thoughts and wondering what is the point.
Its messed up my whole life really. I call anxiety Depression's playmate, they feed off each other!

I could do with some support and help, even writing here, how I really am, helps. for reading this, any suggestions or comments would be appreciated.