I had gone for months without cutting, but a few days ago it all became too much so I gave in and cut a little, despite everything I've been doing to help myself. I've been engaging in a lot of positive distractions like bike riding, yoga, and video games, but they don't seem to be as effective as of late. I'm a passionate singer and it has always been SO therapeutic for me to sing but I'm currently living in an environment where I have very little privacy and can't "let loose" at all. If I had the chance to sing the way I want to, it would be a lot easier for me to resist the urge to cut, but until my boyfriend finds a job and we can move out (we live at his dad's) I'm kind of stuck in this situation. I've been having particularly intense urges since last night and I don't know what to do other than what I've already been doing.
What do you do to ease your urges? Even if I don't always give in, having the constant urge to hurt myself is extremely exhausting.
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Do at least one thing you enjoy each day.
Dx: BPD, OCD, GAD, and PTSD traits
Rx: Lamictal 200mg and 0.5mg Ativan as needed
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