Hey Phil

It's always good to vent - allows you to get it off your chest and rationalise things. I don't think Jenn hates you - why would she?? Afterall what you told her was that you LIKED her - everyone likes being told that! Maybe she's just confused right now if she's in the middle of a breaking up with someone?

"So I have challenged the universe to make us a couple" - ok...why don't you help it out though? I say ask her out...do you know what i regret the most? Not taking the chances that arose!

"No one except my stupid relatives, teachers, friends (except Jenn) and psych doc think I'm smart and have hope in life." - i know that it may not feel like it now...but that's quite alot of people. Perhaps you can add yourself to that list at some point?

hope you're ok!