Hi whisperingskye

Yes, feelings are what they are
And it's not about being "wrong"/not fitting into some "norm".........the part of the "norm" is that depression exists, we wish it didn't but it does......and no-one is immune to it.......some people might not want to/be unable to acknowledge how real hard that can be.......and where it can lead......if someone is experiencing it but........it is what it is........and you're not "wrong".........you're "hurting" and that should/does matter
And there are people, certainly on here, who do "get" that, who do understand

As for.........it should be easier by now..........sometimes depression can "run it's course", although there's no time scale on that (!!).......so no "should"'s (!!), give yourself a break
But lots of times not, and it takes a "little more"..........and you have been trying "a little more" in the things listed, so again kudos!!!!
It's just that..........you've tried them, and that really is great...........just time to look for some things that work better for you........
And letting things out/sharing with others/reaching out for support.........well that's something that depression can seriously silence in you..........but you've already done/are doing so well in that........that is a massive step...........again, no "timescales" and no "should"'s, and I can't say it's going to get better "just like that"..........wish I could but...........well now you have another powerful tool in your armory..........so keep talking, keep sharing, you aren't alone

Alison