gosh thankyou so much all of you for the advice, I think you are all right.He IS angry because I am hurting and he cant help me. I have been in the hospital most of the day, doc suspectedhe had either meningitis or a brain bleed, he had kalaidescope vision and a bad headache. They sent him home and he has to have a brain scan within the next four weeks. They have checked him thoroughly and done bloodwork and everything seems fine.He is diabetic so they didn't want to take any chances.

We are getting on just fine, I wrote him an e.mail last night and a poem and he wrote me something back which I posted in cc. Way with words lol, but it meant a lot to me.

thankyou all so much, wow I am so lucky to have you all as friends, love you each and every one....Jin xxxx