I'm really struggling. I want control over my pain. My boyfriend doesn't understand it and I'm afraid to express myself to him anymore.
I want to cut so badly and can't get it out of my head no matter what I do. It's only been a few days since the last time.
He'll be so upset again. He told me he doesn't know if he can stay with someone who is actively cutting.
I don't like my life and I have such little control over my environment right now. I don't know how to hold on until it gets better. I don't want to ruin my relationship.
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Do at least one thing you enjoy each day.
Dx: BPD, OCD, GAD, and PTSD traits
Rx: Lamictal 200mg and 0.5mg Ativan as needed
"Now I can see all the colors that you see."
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