I hope your back healed up, luna. I know it's not good to project too much into the future. There's an old belief held by people of faith, that you get the strength you need when you need it and not ahead of time.

The thing is I'm just managing to cope with caring for my S. O. who's needing more and more tending. It's not the round the clock caregiving that is hardest, but seeing him slipping further downhill, mentally and physically, no matter what I do, as is going to just continue. We've just been making pre-need burial arrangements. With trying to keep rallying from episodes of depression, as I try to make his days as decent as I can, the last thing I expected was this bizarre twist of fate. I support him through his ordeal, and my healthcare providers are supposed to support me. Yesterday sure wasn't a supportive experience. I guess there's no one to blame. Having one hard problem gives no immunity against something else going wrong.

That's enough whining out of me. Today, I did the minimum I had to. If I try harder tomorrow, things might not seem as bad.