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Originally Posted by unaluna
I think what the t is actually saying is, "okay, i realize now that i have been acting a little too harshly with you, which i have been doing on purpose. The purpose was to make you mad enough to complain, like you are doing now, that you dont like THIS way of interacting with people. The thing is, this is how things USUALLY go between you and other people. I get that. The only way it will stop, is if YOU do something different. And that something different would be, for you to come in and confront me, not run away from it."
My vote is to take a chance, go in and say kinda horrible stuff. Dont yell, but say what you are afraid to say.
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Sounds tempting, but it's just playing around for me, I hate that kind of approach.
I remember one time, a few minutes before the ending of a meeting, I asked him how to cope with my moods multiple times, and he'd get away with not giving me an answer by just being silent and moving on to a different topic.
He's NOT listening to me, and he's playing the "free talk" kind of therapy to let himself do as he pleases, as it feels to me.
I don't come here for a playground or for his matrix simulation world (as it seems to me). I sometimes get the feeling that there is something behind all this waste of time, but it's frustrating me even more because I hate it when someone hides info about me from me as it puts me in a more inferior spot.
When I'd tell him what is wrong, he'd go "what do you have to offer instead?" or "let's see how we can make this better through talking". He's trapping me and he's going to drive me insane inside, I'd feel like throwing an object on him for his stupid games.
Edit:More feelings - he's decapitating me and pushes my buttons so I'll stay in his therapy.
I don't think I can trust therapy anymore, if it always ends up being like this.
Edit 2: A question - if I lay out my problems and feelings and he keeps buttering the time and not FOCUSING on my feelings as if he's not really listening and accepting what I have to say... wow, I just don't want to come to that meeting, emotionally manipulating me to think I'm immature and that I should keep believing there's "something behind all this" is only making me waste my time further.
I just feel like SMSing him "I won't be coming to the meeting. How much do I have to pay for the previous meeting?" and respond to nothing but an answer to my question, with "Thank you. Was nice knowing you."