So I had been doing great with just some minor tweaking to fight some anxiety I had been having. Thats when I changed birth control to the depo privara shot.
One thing the OB/GYN failed to tell me is that it has the possibility of worsening depression and anxiety.

Next thing I know I have fallen into a deep depression. Almost daily at random times I have horrendous crying fits with a side of extreme anxiety. I landed in the emergency room because I was unable to see my therapist or my psychiatrist for several days.

When I finally got in to see my psychiatrist he decided to double my gabapentin.

At first all was going well. The attacks were lesser in length and the depression lifted. Thats when the chest pain started. Back to the ER I went.
I had to go back to my original dosage of Gabapentin, and was back to the drawing board. Attacks resumed and I was defeated

Now my psychiatrist is attempting to adjust my Lamictal now. So far I have felt no change.

Its going to take months to get the depo shot out of my system. I feel so lost. Luckily work has been very supportive despite the fact that i am on week 2 of missing work. I have been declined FMLA because I havent worked there long enough so the fear of losing my job is still in the balance.

Any advice on coping mechanisms I can try when these attacks happen? Ive tried meditation, art therapy, mindful thinking, sleeping through it, and talking to close family. Nothing has lifted the depression and the attacks keep coming. Sometimes twice a day. Any recommendations would be greatly appreciated.