Recently, I have felt the need to repeatedly check my door to see if it is locked, even though I know it is. Last night after I had gone to bed I had to get up and check and check it repeatedly by pulling on the handle even though I knew it was locked. I kept thinking 'It might not be locked', then have to tell myself, 'It is locked', but I still didnt believe it, I still had to try the handle. I did it about 20 times last night. I still worried about whether the door was locked after that, but it wasnt as strong.
This morning too, as I came into my room and locked my door again, I had to once again check it 20 times... every time I try the door and I know it's locked, as soon as I turn away I worry it isnt. This sounds so stupid. Even now, I want to check my door is still locked, though from here I can see it is. The urge isnt strong though, but I know that if I got up to try it, I would have to do it repeatedly again.

There is also something else I am unsure about, that I guess is related to anxiety. Especially last night, I was for some reason afraid that I was going to be attacked. This sounds stupid as well... I mean, I was in my room and the door was locked and yet I still felt very vulnerable. At one point I hid under my desk to try to hide, and I want to do that now as well... I have no idea why. When I went to bed last night, my bed is against the wall, and I had to press up right close with my back to the wall so I couldnt be attacked from behind, and I was on my side curled up because I felt too vulnerable if I lay on my back. I was afraid to close my eyes because I felt I would be attacked. But I fell asleep eventually because I was so tired...

Any thoughts?

Sorry this is so long...