ok, i've checked the voice mails (stomach still upset i was so nervous) and it was the woman that stays there. she said that the father wanted to know if i'm coming down there on the first one. then said that he wanted me to give him a call on the second one.

i physically can't do that right now. the intense emotion going on inside of me just is too much. just checking the voice mail was almost too much. we want to hide. i can't call him right now...i just can't.

i can't do this right now. im awful i knw but i cant. im sorry.