It's ok... youre not awful. You're under a lot of stress. It's not bad to feel this way. You'll be ok... Maybe just sit down in a chair and concentrate on your breathing for a while... I dont know what else to say, but youre definitely not a bad person. I've been so impressed with all the things you've been managing recently...if calling him stresses you out, just dont do it until youre ready. Maybe get out of the house for a little while... maybe take your little boy to a play park or something.

Hope you feel better soon, (((((kimmy)))))

~ silver