I was on incapacity benefit for a long time. I finally got healthy enough to be employed by someone (due to a first refusal, and not due to my inherent merit).

The job is similar to what I did in my last job, and I was told by various managers I was doing well. Then today the manager in overall charge chewed me out over some insignificant issue. He wasn't rude, but he was condescending. I left work knowing why people self-harm or attempt suicide.

I'll admit it. I fear people who have authority over me. It's not like I think they can destroy me totally, but they do have the power to ruin my life. I try to avoid attracting attention towards myself. I can't imagine how people can have an 'affable' relationship with their boss, knowing that this person can make you life hell on a whim and not have to deal with any real consequences.

I'm not quitting, but I'm thankful I'm not planning to work there after April.