How can you be so sure you are too far gone though if you haven't followed through on the hospital option? You might have accepted it but perhaps you are wrong to? You could go to hospital and come out feeling a lot better, you could come out and there be no improvement. You aren't going to know unless you try though, so I say it's too early to say there's not a damn thing anyone can do to help.

Not saying drop everything and go to hospital...but perhaps worth considering again.