I sabotage relationships because I cannot handle the emotional side of things and intimacy.So I get this.I also fail to work on or start creative projects for fear of failure and worst still success,I worry success with bring down on me demands that are overwhelming and that I cannot meet,and being ill,and being unable to fulfil obligations ,that is my worst nightmare.Otherwise if I could succeed at my goal I would be so happy.Like my whole life my story is me being held back by my fears.I don't know what to do.