That can come from fear that you may not be able to maintain success. The fact that you destroy it so fast makes me wonder if you choose to do that before anyone else can, that seems like a desire to have the control. I think you need to explore how this may have started in you, could be a bully or older sibling that made you feel like if you did not destroy a positive they would? Could even be something your parents did that hurt your feelings at one point.

When you produce do you see it as something to be proud of or are you unhappy with it because it doesn't feel perfect enough to you?