Tisha,you have got to stop expecting your family to come good cos they won't.I waited 35 years for my sister and mother to do right by me they never came good for me.I cut my sister out of my life cos she has been a right abusive nasty ****er since the day I was born towards me!A list of aggression's and abusive acts against me as long as both your arms.
My mother I cut out of my life for three months but I let her back in cos she started to appreciate me better after that.My family were never there for me I have always been expected to live my life to serve their interests wants and needs.
If yours are like that cut them out and let them go willingly,no use going over and over how much it hurts that they haven't loved and protected you,or expecting them to from now on,they won't change.A definition of madness is doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results,same with people trusting them and expecting them to come good for you when they never have,haven't and never will!Sorry I know how much it hurts but there comes a time when we have to let go of the expectation and stop wanting love from a wooden horse.