I'm hesitant to talk about my emotions out in public or my life because I don't want someone moralizing at me. My daughter just broke up with her boyfriend because he wasn't paying attention to her. I recently had to end a relationship because he wasn't keeping his promises to me. It's a slippery slope we're both sliding down. When I get weak she tells me to get up and I fight to keep her from obsessing. Meanwhile I'm still harboring anger and disgust for my ex husband and parents for letting me down.

This is complex ptsd.

I also have ptsd as a medical condition and a disability but not everybody with ptsd has complex ptsd.

I get furious when people try to control me because they can't deal with my intensity.

I've been a spirit of fire for a long time. When I was younger I was a prisoner of my parents . Now that I'm a parent of a very different teenager then I was it's my job to be of service to my daughter despite my own pain.

I know I bring out others insanity whenever I tell my truth. That's why I don't talk these days on forums.