could be about three months. i go for a few weeks... then we have a couple sessions. then a break for christmas... then i go to the US for a few weeks... he said he would be around until christmas... i guess means he is taking time after christmas. i need to get out of here, anyway. either NZ or another city for the first half of the year, then to the US the next.

we may as well say goodbye now, really. it isn't fair of me to tell him how much it hurts when people go. it isn't fair of me to tell him i could let bob go cause of him. cause now i have to let him go too and he isn't there for me he isn't.

i don't feel very well.
3 days until my mid-term
i really really really really don't want to do it
i feel ill