Maybe you're getting the virus from him :-)

No chickening out "first" just to beat him to the supposed punch. You'll be back and he'll be back. I didn't see my T for 9 years but we saw one another again. It's one of the best things that has happened in my life; if I'd known I was going to see her again a lot wouldn't have been quite so painful. But now it doesn't matter because we "fixed" all that. The future really has a lot of "power" and hoping that things will come out right "then" is not an insane hope.