T,
So... My friend finally moved to amsterdam. She hasn't talked with me in an eternity, so it shouldn't make a difference, right?
Pdoc didn't get back to the pharmacie either. I'll be shaking and nauseous all day tomorrow, but it's ok, it's just me, right?
I feel lonely. I feel like everyone's just leaving me alone, because I'm a too huge pain in the ***. What am I doing wrong? I'm just trying to be nice with everyone, I try to do everything right, I try not to upset everyone and to never force myself upon anyone. And still it seems to be the only thing I'm doing.

I'm doing something that makes others wanting to leave me alone and abandon me. Something that makes me unworthy of care. What is it? I want to change it.