Originally, I struggled with anorexia. I starved myself constantly, and excercised obsessively, and a considerable amount of weight in nearly 2 months. However, now the complete opposite has happened. I can't stop eating. I have gained a lot of weight and I can't bear to look into the mirror at myself. My episodes of binging are so frequent, that I often go to bed feeling sick and disgusted. I just, I don't know how to control myself. I've been in this vicious cycle for the past two years, and I can not handle it. I go back to wishing I were anorexic again, and this isn't what I want. However, I just don't know what to do. I hate going to bed feeling like I'm about to throw up, but I just can't stop myself. My episodes scare me. I need help, but my family would be even less than helpful in this situation, they would only ridicule me for it...