Maybe they didn't have you on the right meds. Sometimes it takes a while of trail and error to get the right combo. Or it did for me. Plus it takes a while for meds to actually start working like they are suppose to. So try something else, and give it some time to work. It would be a lot better than feeling like you are feeling now. Ya know? Sometimes our chemical balance gets off and once it gets back in check you can start coming off the medication. But then sometimes it's long term. I think everyone hates to take meds. But given the choice to not take meds and feel like crap and not take meds and feel a little better I will take the meds. I'm not very compliant though and I need to do better with that, because I can tell when I'm not taking them.
Poor Crisis line people LOL No one likes them but they are still there for us and for this I'm glad. It's good to know that this last life line is out there for us and others. I don't want to use it but I hope I would if it came to that point.
Glad you still have the number.
That's good that you are seeing your T on Monday, please be honest with him/her on how you feel.