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Originally Posted by Breadfish
Do you have a bicycle? Maybe you can take a long ride and sing while you're cycling? That's sort of private.
My SI method of choice is to
and sometimes it helps to write those words on my leg instead. (Whiteboard marker is my preferable method - waterproof markers are really hard to wash off)
Also my parents are starting to trust me again (for example, they'll dare to leave me alone in the house overnight, which they didn't dare for a long time) and I'm afraid that if I SI and they find out, they'll start to thread lightly around me again, and I dislike that for their sakes - they should have more of a life than worrying about their daughter 24/7. So that is a great motivation to not hurt myself. |
Yes, I go biking very often but I ride through our neighborhood bike trails which aren't vacant of people. I also ride with my boyfriend because I'm kind of anxious around other people when I'm alone.
I need to be completely alone to feel comfortable singing and I just don't get that, almost ever
I understand what you mean, except with my boyfriend. He's constantly worried that if I'm in the bathroom for a certain period of time that I'm hurting myself, and I hate putting him through that.
I'm glad that not wanting to worry your parents can serve as a motivator for you (and that you're getting their trust back). My therapist advised me to use that as a motivator not to cut myself (boyfriend) and I was definitely resisting for a good few months for that reason but I caved in and it's on my mind every single day, to varying degrees.
I also get triggered by the tiniest things, like when my cat accidentally scratched me pretty decently on the leg the other day when he was jumping from the desk.
Thanks for specifying what type of marker you use. I was afraid to use a marker that took forever to wash off because I'd find that annoying.
I just want the urges to go away.