Thanks guys,

I'm not seeing my Psychologist until end of the month or my CPN until April. But I'm seeing my community worker on Wed going to try and talk to her it's hard as we are in the community so no privacy as we meet for lunch in a local shopping centre.

I guess it's a mixture of wanting the pain and I am taking my frustrations out on something rather than hitting myself or hurting myself even more by doing my normal behaviours.