Thank you all for your responses... I really appreciate your feedback. I think you're all right ... i probably should tell her. I mean she's the closest thing i have to someone i can talk about this with, and who knows, maybe she will be able to recommend me to someone who i'll connect with. I so need that connection right now, and I think it's about time I out and told someone who can actually help me with it.

BTW- Split Image, Lord of the Dance is one of my favourite hymns too. Do you know "I feel the winds of God today" because that one's my favourite

Thank you all again