I hate my exs but I've sort of developed a kind of Stockholm syndrome. Currently I'm not with them but despite the hell I had been through (emotionally) I'm still attached to them. Either I can't let go of the past, or don't want to IDK. But I find myself wishing I never left them or vise versa. IDKY I keep obsessing about them. It don't love them. My emotions are all over the place. Just saying: Why is it that we do this to ourselves. It's like putting your hand in the fire over an over again just to be reminded you can feel. I hate it yet when I feel the hurt, I feel better and yet HURT at the same time!