reb567,

Thank you for replying and I'm sorry you deal with the sort of memories that can never be spoken aloud, even though they need to be.

You and Trace are right and I should be more open. The guy I speak to wants me to be honest and he's really trying to encourage me to do so. Honesty means I have to deal with it. All of it.

How the guy puts it, "Might as well tell because forgetting isn't going to happen for any of us again. We've long passed that point. Only way out is to deal with it now."

He makes a fine point and so do you two. I've always just been really stubborn. I'll probably read off from this thread to him on Monday.