haunted, there's a lot of familiar material there. Particularly the adulthood denial of what you've been through. Man I know that one. Minimization and denial maintained through a rigorous course of workaholism and parenthood.

But it comes back whether we like it or not. I wish it didn't.

I'm so sorry for what you went through. I think it's great, however, that you identify your lack of parenting as part of the problem. Those things with your first boyfriend for example, they never should have been allowed to take place. You seem to know that and that's incredibly important.

My heart goes out to you and I hope I can be of some comfort to you as you continue to heal.

Cyran0