I hate that word, "should". Our brain 'should' do this or 'should' do that.

'Should' is a black-hole of, dare I say it, bullsh*t.

What should or shouldn't happen doesn't matter. What is, is something that can't really be contended with because it is fact.

'Should' invalidates what is.

How you feel is valid and is what it is. Tell 'should' to go to hell.

(sorry for the language, it's one of them days)