I do have my son in every in-home service you could think of, and he has been hospitalized and in group homes countless times since he was 2. It seems as though every time he is put in placement, I get time to take care of myself and rest when I need to, but as soon as he comes back home, it goes right back to not being able to do what I need for myself. I literally have no life outside of my house when he is here. He is in psych placement now, but I was told he may be coming back home in a few weeks, maybe. I'm already nervous and afraid. I've had my face broken ( kicked right below the left eye, deep facial fracture), had my hair ripped out...you name it. And he has done so much property damage that we are at risk for eviction. His psychiatrist has suggested that I consider some type of long-term/permanent placement for him. Plus, the local school system has all but given up on him. I feel awful. I've done everything I can think of to help him and nothing works. I feel like a failure as a parent.