Hi there. I can understand what your saying. I've been through denial and in some ways I'm still going through it. I'm in the start of DBT Therapy. There are so many struggles and so many triggers for me. One minute I'm here and the next I wake up and it's a different day. Every waking day is such a struggle. I don't really know what I expect from being here. I'm no longer an I that I feel I am but a we. We are struggling to want to do things in our own but keep being told to work as a unit. I really can't see that happening. I wish the best for you.