yeah - some days are like that. it is always greener on the other side. and thenthere's the days when i do appreciate things- it is nice - and last for ...no not a full day. an hour? a few hours? 20 minutes? until the next trigger. until the next cycle of ptsd, then sometimes goes into dissociation and then switching to a different alter who can then either experience life as good or bad - until the next trigger.. the next cycle, the next alter...