Oh...I never realized the thought of me being attacked were intrusive thoughts. Maybe they are. I know there are completely irrational and nothing will happen but it still makes me nervous. And it drives me mad, having to check the door all the time, every time I lock it. I dont want to leave my room because I know I will have to do it when I come back in.

I also dont have chance to talk with my counsellor until Wednesday and with my doctor until next Friday...so, I will just have to cope.