I'm considering moving across country again, this time because my commute to work is too long and I'm just done with it (2.5 hrs each way) and to be closer to family. A good friend of mine here is encouraging me to do it, thinks I'll be a lot happier there. But I've been down for quite some time now, and I'd just bring that with me. My pdoc prescribed Vraylar, which I was hoping would help, but my insurance won't pay for it.

Last time I moved across country (to CA) I was hypo and it was relatively easy, I was extremely productive and focused for most of that time. Now I'm not, have a hard time focusing at all, and my anxiety is really bad, when last time it had melted away because I was hypo.

I applied for a job there in my field and so far there's some interest, I have a phone interview later this week. But I HATE being in limbo and that's how I feel. I'm not even sure if I want to do this. Because of all of this, aside from feeling down, my anxiety is SKY HIGH.

I hate feeling like this. I feel pushed and pulled in this direction and that. I'm planning on doing some meditation, which is new to me, to try to work on the anxiety. Right now, the only thing that really helps is an extra klonopin, but my pdoc only gives me 10 extra/month so I can't be taking them every day. In any case, I think it's better to find alternatives.