I am afraid this will effect your future relationships ... why would anything change ... humans need the touch of another ... I would seek out a professional .... a good therapist maybe ... you need to believe in yourself ... love yourself ... your very young ... now is the time to reach the bottom of what your feelings ... having someone to share your life with .... having a family of your own ... these require being close and open with another ... sharing ourselves with another ... this is natural ... and as it should be ... please seek out help ... at the very least you will understand yourself better ... best wishes .... Tigger.