V, I need to tell you so many things but I feel you don't want to hear what I want to say. I don't know why I feel like that. I just want you to care... What you said last time about "people usually don't do what they love as a job, they do it in their free time" triggered me so much, I felt so angry and still have self destructive thoughts when thinking about this. I want to write you an email about this before our next session, I want you to know how much this hurts...