Another example of how words cut so deeply. Especially if they come from people you care about or look up to. So sorry they are haunting you now. You have to work on knowing you are safe now from those people and their words can no longer hurt you, or threaten you. How about writing all those words you can remember down on a piece of paper, put them in an airtight jar or bag where they can no longer breathe, once you feel like all the words are in that container and dead, then get rid of them. Down the toilet, burn them, trash them, just make sure you put them somewhere they can never come back to you. Make a promise to yourself that those words are now out of you and dead, this it the last you will allow them to be part of your life. Just a thought Sounds a little like an intense ritual but it came from my heart and I felt strongly about expressing this. Maybe it's something I need to do myself. Hmmmmmm