April is fast approaching and it's causing me so much anxiety. I hate the way I feel and I don't know what to do. My husband is going to Romania for a month. I'm dreading it so much. So I'll be here alone with the kids and I don't know anyone here at all where we live. Also if you don't know from previous posts I don't drive due to anxiety. I've been dreading this since like January. I wish I could just escape. I honestly can't even explain this is making me feel but I just need someone to talk to as my husband doesn't understand at all. I would definitely go stay with his family if my son wasn't in school. They are like 4hrs away. I've also been feeling a little depressed which doesn't help either. It's already been hard to get out of bed to take to my son to the bus stop, several times I have thought about taking him out of school though I do realize that is a terrible idea and I hope and don't think I'd actually do it. I just feel like I'm going into another cycle (episode) because of all this. All I can think about is how much I don't want to be here alone, this Anxiety is making me irritable and shop crazy. I just want​ to crawl out of my skin.