I mentioned learning, because when I search on the internet for advice about how to make therapy work, learning is often mentioned: one must apply what one learns in therapy to everyday life. That would be fine, if I were actually learning anything. Just recently, I have tried to think very hard after the session "Did I learn something?" But it is an aggravating question, because I find it unpleasant even to think of therapy. It pollutes my life, in a way. What I mean is: since I don't seem to progress in it, even reflecting on it brings on feelings of futility. So I naturally try to forget about it when I 'm not in it, just as a means of getting on with my life.