I have been tackling a challenge recently that involves what I believe is a personal phobia with anything that is mood altering or medicinal drug use.

This has come about because I have always been a person who was very much against anything that was mood altering. After watching my parents downfalls of drugs and alcohol, I became very awkward about ever taking or being with someone who did recreationaly drink or do drugs. I also watched kids during my grade school days do drugs and it scared me a lot. Looking back, I had a lot of anxiety generated from that. It had got to the point where I wouldn't even want to take an anti-anxiety medication that had been prescribed, which I am proud to say I didn't have to take much. Cognitive behavioral therapy worked a lot better actually.

This was never really an issue for alcohol, as I am an occasional social drinker. What has become an issue though, is that my girlfriend enjoys smoking marijuana once in a great while and I became very upset about it. She is a very good student, makes good decisions, and doesn't lead a wild and crazy life.

As time has passed and I am growing into an adult now, I am realizing that I am not like either of my parents very much (They have been divorced since I was an infant) , and that I do not posses personality traits like theirs that would be destructive when using mood altering things.

I am curious to try marijuana now, to understand what it's like, as well as confront my fears of recreational drugs. Marijuana is where I draw the line though, as anything else that is a recreational drug has been processed, far more potent, far more destructive and addictive, and overall not natural whatsoever.

Thought's? Open minded opinions? Is there a phobia for this?

Thanks for reading,

Dave