Just woke up. Checked my work email and am relieved that I am not hthere. Tho I do feel a little bit guilty about calling out sick. But it's not as if I am faking- its just at that is is mental sick and not physical sick...

Anyway I am waiting for an email or call back from my pdoc. I know I need To find a new one but my previous attempts didn't go very well. Mental health care sucks- none of the psychiatrists around here participate in insurance plans. Totall bs.

Anywhow, sorry if I sound miserable. I think I have been holding it in and it has come out on here. The depression hAs really been kicking my ***. I'm trying. Or maybe I'm not. Idk anymore. I'm still here anyway. Hoping to feel better like now.

Well have a good Monday all.