I really don't know if this bear life is "worth it"

I've been told by so many it isn't (directly or indirectly)

I feel that I hurt people

(Just by existing...)

But mostly I'm tired of ... too much pain to put into words

(I can't reach out to family, friends, or professionals..)

(It's not time for my 5 minute slot yet with the doctors
That's all they give me, and I deserve even less )



I'm sorry about this post, I really "shouldn't" be posting stuff like this..