Well told summary. As really sick as the cliche is, today is a new day. Like the others say, maybe it was time to tell the story, get that out.

So, what have you been thinking of doing different this time to work on this bout? Any thought of trying therapy again, just looking for the right therapist along the lines of "when the student is ready the teacher appears"? Lots of people here have gone through lots of therapists before finding a good/right one for them. Some sort of support system of sorts? It is good you have come here, this community is a great support. It is one of the few places online that I wish were also concrete.