After calling a bunch of crisis hotlines in December and January I learned ways to manage my severe depression so that it won't escalate.

This means I don't think about going to the emergency room...which would be costly. I don't call the hotlines anymore.

I do all the stuff...deep breathing, hot bath, walk, and it helps. If I feel anxious I take the herb valerian...triple the recommended dose. It is sedating so not great for daytime.

The depression is about the same with frequent doses of suicidal ideation. It isn't getting better and I feel like I should just ignore it.

I won't take AD's so you could say I have been and continue to be suffering from unmedicated severe depression.

Mental health care has not helped.