Thanks old one and Sweet Crusader.

It is not safe to discuss feelings in my family of origin.
That is part of why I am on the outside. I feel. They won't. This is my path and frankly I am glad I am the feeling one. Despite how much it hurts, at least I know I'm alive.

I am blessed with three beautiful children with whom I can be me and who feel safe to be themselves with me. I have a loving husband who listens to all of my ramblings. He is my best friend.

It is in my relationship with T that I am trying to work through these fragmented feelings and become whole. I know I can do this.

Peace.