Ya know,

I think the worst thing I find about being this way -- is the inability to tell where I am -- particularly when depressed.

Even when on the up-swing, I sometimes don't recognize it for what it is.

When depressed, I often think it's just cuz I am tired, not sleeping right, or somehow just 'fatigued' -- and don't connect that with being depressed.

Right now I:
1) I can't 'think' -- like at all. I can read and that's cool but trying to recall stuff at work, make decisions, etc is super hard...if not impossible.

2) I feel completely exhausted. I feel like my eyes are always droopy.

3) I feel bored -- which could be confused for lack of interesting in things -- I watch YouTube political clips, start a game and quit right away, start movies and get bored with them. The only that keeps my attention is reading. I can't decide between podcasts, music, audiobook for my commute...none seem interesting or keep my attention.

4) I put off things around the house that I NEED to get done...and I only do the bare minimum cleaning -- though I do cook good meals for my wife and myself...primarily for her, as I would just eat burritos, pizza, etc, cuz it's easier.

So all this, which sounds like depression, but I don't really see it.

What do you think? Depression?

What's the worst thing you encounter?