Pulled myself out of the depression but now I'm experiencing anxiety! Don't know which is worse. Could it be possible that anxiety over the holidays is manifesting itself as anxiety over health or the lack of? Sure hate it when that happens! Always checking out my heart beat, this or that pain, wondering why I see blue spots if I look into bright sunlight... ARGH!!

I'm tired of always having to "push through" something to just LIVE!!! DAMN THIS ILLNESS!!!