I think you are in the UK? I have watched documentaries on mental health care through the NHS and it is as bad there as in U.S. Long waits for CBT courses etc.

I think CBT is good...this is what I have been using...but I also have to realize our mental health care system here is not going to help much. There are no CBT courses in my area. So I have a workbook and do it on my own.

I am tired of being severely depressed and especially suicidal. So I had better find my own ways of curing myself.