I'm going on nearly 5 months clean myself and am still struggling quite a bit. Not so much with the not using but with the guilt, regret, remorse and sheer embarrassment over what I did during my last drug fuelled manic episode. I've been trying to talk myself into going to meetings in the hopes that connecting with others who have been where I am will help. Clearly this is something that you've had success with yourself. I'm not sure why I haven't gone yet, it's not as though it's going to hurt. Thanks for your post, it helps to see others that have utilized 12 step programs as a part of their recovery.